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There are indications.
One, you begin to feel a different identity within you. You

are no more the same. If the technique fits you,

immediately you are a different person. If you are a

husband, you are no more the same husband. If you are a

shopkeeper, you are never again the same shopkeeper.

Whatsoever you are, if the technique fits you, you are a

different person; that is the first indication. So if you

begin to feel strange about yourself, know that something

is happening to you. If you remain the same and do not

feel any strangeness, nothing is happening. This is the

first indication of whether a technique fits you. If it fits,

immediately you are transported, transformed into a

different person. Suddenly this happens: you look at the

world in a different way. The eyes are the same, but the

looker behind them is different.

Secondly, all that creates tensions, conflicts, starts

dropping. It is not that when you have practiced the

method for years, then your conflicts, anxieties, tensions

will drop -- no! If the method fits you, immediately they

start dropping. You can feel an aliveness coming to you;

you are being unburdened. You will begin to feel, if the

technique fits you, that gravity has become reversed.

Now the earth is not pulling you down. Rather, the sky is

pulling you up. How do you feel when an airplane takes

off? Everything is disturbed. Suddenly there is a jerk, and

gravity becomes meaningless. Now the earth is not

pulling you, you are going away from gravity.

The same jerk happens if a meditative technique fits you.

Suddenly you take off. Suddenly you feel the earth has

become meaningless; there is no gravity. It is not pulling

you down, you are being pulled up. In religious

terminology, this is called "grace". There are two forces

-- gravity and grace. Grace means you are being pulled

upwards; gravity means you are being pulled downwards.

That is why in meditation many people suddenly feel they

have no weight.

That is why many people feel an inner levitation. So many

have reported this to me when the technique fits them:

"This is strange! We close our eyes and we feel that we

are a little bit above the earth -- one foot, two feet, even

four feet above the earth. When we open our eyes we are

just on the ground; when we close our eyes we have

levitated. So what is this? When we open our eyes we are

just on the ground! We never levitated."

The body remains on the ground, but you levitate. This

levitation is really a pull from the above. If the technique

fits you have been pulled, because the working of the

technique is to make available for you the upward pull.

This is what the technique means: to make you available

for the force which can pull you up. So if it fits, you know

-- you have become weightless.

Thirdly, whatsoever you will now do, whatsoever,

howsoever trivial, will be different. You will walk in a

different way, you will sit in a different way, you will eat

in a different way. Everything will be different. This

difference you will feel everywhere. Sometimes this

strange experience of being different creates fear. One

wants again to go back and be the same, because one

was so attuned with the old. It was a routine world, even

boring, but you were efficient in it.

Now everywhere you will feel a gap. You will feel that

your efficiency is lost. You will feel that your utility is

reduced. You will feel that everywhere you are an

outsider. One has to pass through this period. You will

become attuned again. You have changed, not the world,

so you will not fit. So remember the third thing: When the

technique fits you, you will not fit into the world. You will

become unfit. Everywhere something is loose, some bolt

is missing. Everywhere you will feel that there has been

an earthquake. And everything has remained the same;

only you, you, have become different. But you will be

attuned again on a different plane, on a higher plane.

The disturbance is felt just like when a child grows and

becomes sexually mature. At the age of fourteen or

fifteen every boy feels that he has become strange. A

new force has entered -- sex. It was not there before, or it

was, but it was hidden. Now for the first time he has

become available for a new kind of force. That is why

boys are very awkward; girls, boys, when they become

sexually mature, they are very awkward. They are

nowhere. They are no longer children and they are not yet

men, so they are in between, fitting nowhere. If they play

with small children they feel awkward -- they have

become men. If they start making friendships with men

they feel awkward -- they are still children. They fit with

no one.

The same phenomenon happens when a technique fits

you. A new energy source becomes available that is

greater than sex. You are again in a transitory period.

Now you cannot fit in this world of worldly men. You are

not a child, and you cannot yet fit in the world of saints;

and in between one feels awkward.

If a technique fits you these three things will come up.

You may not have expected that I would say these

things. You may have expected that I would say you will

become more silent, more quiet, and I am saying quite

the contrary: you will become more disturbed. When the

technique fits you will become more disturbed, not more

silent. Silence will come later on. And if silence comes

and not disturbance, know well that this is not a

technique; this is just getting adjusted to the old pattern.

That is why more people go for a prayer than for

meditation because prayer gives you a consolation. It fits

you, adjusts to you, to your world. Prayer was doing

virtually the same thing that psychoanalysts are now

doing. If you are disturbed they will make you less

disturbed, adjusted to the pattern, to the society, to the

family. So by going to a psychoanalyst for one, two or

three years you will not get better, but you will be more

adjusted. Prayer does the same thing, and priests do the

same thing -- they make you more adjusted. Your child

has died and you are disturbed, and you go to a priest. He

says, "Do not be disturbed. Only those children die early

whom God loves more. He calls them up." You feel


Your child has been "called up." God loves him more. Or

the priest says something else: "Do not be worried, the

soul never dies. Your child is in heaven."

One woman was here just a few days before. Her husband

had died just during the past month. She was disturbed.

She came to me and she said, "Only assure me that he is

reborn in a good place and then everything will be okay.

Just give me a certainty that he has not gone to hell or

he has not become an animal, that he is in heaven or he

has become a god or some such thing. If you can just

assure me of this, then everything is okay. Then I can

bear it; otherwise I am miserable."

The priest would say, "Okay! Your husband is born as a

god in the seventh heaven, and he is very happy. And he

is waiting for you."

These prayers, they make you adjusted to the pattern...

you feel better. Meditation is a science. It is not going to

help you in adjustment, it is going to help you in

transformation. That is why I say these three signs will

be there as indications. Silence will come, but not as an

adjustment. Silence will come as an inner flowering.

Then silence will not be an adjustment with the society,

with the family, the world, the business -- no! Then

silence will be a real harmony with the universe.

Then a deep harmony flowers between you and the

totality, then there is silence -- but that will come later.

First you will get disturbed, first you will become mad.

If a technique fits, it will make you aware of everything

that you are. Your anarchy, your mind, your madness,

everything will come to light. You are just a dark mess.

When a technique fits, it is as if suddenly there is light

and the whole mess becomes apparent. For the first time

you will encounter yourself as you are. You would like to

put the light off and go to sleep again -- it is fearful. This

is the point where the master becomes helpful. He says,

"Do not be afraid. This is just the beginning. And do not

escape from it."

At first this light shows you what you are, and if you can

go on and on, it transforms you toward what you can be.

Enough for today.